This year has been a lesson in feeling powerless for me.
I had such visions for this year. I had trips and speaking engagements. Goals for my career and family. Last year was hard for us with a sudden death in the family and all the implications of that, so we had joked that there was no way 2020 could be worse than 2019.
If only we knew.
Since March I have felt utterly powerless. I have felt reactionary to everything happening. It has felt at times like I’m standing on the edge of the beach, getting hit over and over again by the waves. The most I can hope to do is cover my head and simply make it through until the next blow.
I have been living to survive. To protect my family, my kids, my friends, my business, my clients. To simply make it through this year.
Recently I’ve realized that’s simply not enough.
I understand the need to do it. Truly. I completely understand the need to hide in a closet sometimes and wait for the hard stuff to subside. Do that if you need to for yourself and your loved ones.
When you are ready, consider what more you can do.
Because despite how it feels and what the outside world may tell us. Despite what we’ve lost or what we are mourning. Despite all of it.
We still have our power.
We still have the power to chose how we react and what we do next. We have the power to chose our thoughts. We have the power to chose our own actions, even in response to a situation we don’t want.
I don’t want to give up my power anymore.
No, I don’t know what’s coming next. This year has changed me and my family and neighbors and fellow humans more than I can possibly contemplate. I have cautious optimism about what comes next, but I know I can’t predict it.
I CAN chose to use my power to decide how I walk through that unknown.
Don’t let anything take your power away. Whether it be the unknown or another person or an injury or circumstances.
You have power because you are you and it is inherent within you. Keep it. Use it.
We need you.